I always figured it would be like two jagged planks from a shipwreck holding hands to keep themselves afloat.

Spent the last of my food money on a twelve pack of beer, but thats ok cos it's basically an investment. I've been thinking seriously about my future; I'm planning my entire life out on the wall calendar I keep hanging on the back of the toilet door. All the important dates of 2017 have already been circled and underlined. Keep writing myself these little post-it notes. Monday I take out garbage, and Wednesday of course is laundry day, and on Friday I buy bullets.

My life is a brightly coloured flowchart with lines so straight and true you could navigate the pacific ocean with it. I mean you could set the very stars by my pocketwatch.

I'm kind of an overly emotional person I guess, and right now things are a seething cauldron of confusion. I'm far too easy to mess with, I get myself in these horrible tangles. Why can't it just be simple? Why can't the goddamn jigsaw pieces ever just come precut as perfect squares?

I feel like a sleepy volcano. A sleepy, hungover as fuck, irritable volcano.

In other news, LULZ2 is beginning to take shape. Need to work on it a lot more, but once the basic framework is in place development will be a lot faster.

When I woke up this morning I was still mildly drunk, which is not a bad way to start the day all things considered. Started taking my meds, again, and once again resolved to write every single day, even if it is just trash, and then see what develops.

In terms of what I'm doing with myself I've started re-writing LULZ, a semantic search engine and muckraker for personal information on the web. It was kind of inspiring to learn maltego sucked so much ass and yet is still universally lauded. Ver 1 of LULZ, written over a year ago, already made maltego bite the curb, so to speak, but I didn't release it because I honestly didn't think it was good enough or even practically usable. Got bored with it and since lost the source code, but now I have a much better handle on blackboard architecture and Bayesian inference and therefore should be able to do a much better job.

Essentially LULZ is a web-stalking tool that searches for interesting info in a similar way to a real human researcher. Still heaps of work to go though, and if I keep getting drunk I'll never get it finished.

Maltego blows largely for two reasons:

1)it is incapable of determining the relevance of new information to a search. Relevance must be manually assigned by the operator

2)Maltego wants to be a commercial product when it grows up, and so bends over assways to obey the TOS for various sites. Mega-lame.

Trying to take things easy in my personal life, I have a tendency to flip out, over-react, nurture obsessions and the like. Need to relax. Take a chill pill or two, perhaps down the entire bottle.

Have you noticed that smiley faces make everything ok?

“ Fuck you Caleb I hate your guts ;) ”